Don't really have all that much to say, except that I was reading a magazine the other day and it had an article in it about a girl with anorexia. As I was reading it my friend and boyfriend were looking over my shoulders at the pictures of the girl - one when she was anorexic and one recovered. I was shocked at how awful they thought she looked when she was thinner.

I know my image of what is fat and thin or whatever has changed but I've never really compared it with someone else's before. They really did think it was quite disgusting and couldn't understand why anyone would do that to themself. Personally, I thought she looked OK. It wasn't as far as I'd want to go but I had no problem at all with her figure.

It just surprised me really that the two people I'm closest to could have such a different view. I have to wonder if they were just overreacting to the image, or if my idea of perfection is way off the mark. The whole point of wanting to lose weight is so that I could feel good about myself and not have to worry that people are staring at me and tutting or whatever. But to go the other extreme could lead to even more of that.

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I've been reading through all my old entries. I used to be so motivated. What happened? It was strange re-reading all the ones to do with the Rich and H issue. Spoke to Rich the other day. We don't talk that much, but get on well when we do. Amy told me she wished she could be like that with her ex's. Just thought I'd mention.