I have bad hunger pains. I don't want to eat but if I don't I'll have to put up with this fucking pain all day and I don't think I can. I ate only half of a chicken burger yesterday and I can't remember what I ate the day before. My memory is so bad. I was laying in bed last night thinking about God knows what, some shit from ages ago anyway. Then I realised I couldn't remember half of what I was trying to think about. I don't know why I'm rambling on about this, but it just pisses me off sometimes. Like, when I've been out drinking, then next morning everyone's walking about moaning about and hangover and I'm sat there feeling fine but trying hard as hell to recall what actually happened the night before. Sometimes it's amusing but others it just gets annoying.

Anyway, I've practially stopped eating. I just don't get the urge to do so any more. I kinda like this but it also kinda freaks me out. I mean, how little amount of food is it actually possible for a person to survive on? I don't wanna find that out for myself really. When I started restricting I never intended to stop eating or go below a certain amount of calories a day, but it's happened. I don't even keep track any more because I know I've eaten barely anything so it's not worth totting up.

Hmm, anyway, I'm fed up of moaning about my eating habbits already. Can't think of anything else to talk about though. I went back down to tanning place yesterday with Amy and did another 12 minutes. The woman behind the counter seemed to think that this was a lot. I really have no idea, but I don't find it difficult to stay in there that long so I guess it's OK.

I am so tired. I am all the time really but it never fails to shock me that I can be so knackered whatever the time is, regardless of how much sleep I've had. Maybe I should start taking speed again. It would help keep me feeling awake and help with surpressing hunger, though that's not really an issue now. The only thing that puts me off is the come down. Oh well, I suppose tea and coffee will do for now.